I've been more forgetful than usual. Me! I'm the one who usually remembers specifics about things decades ago. I remember playing pencils with the pencils we were supposed to be selling in the school's store in elementary school. I remember how many chops it took for me to break the school's president's pencil in the back of the store.And what we she said to the students doing the right thing selling supplies.
Nope. Now it seems that I hear, "Remember? I told you blah, blah, blah." a lot.
I have been trying to stay proactive when it comes to my health. Even though I'm not always consistent, I give myself credit for doing it when I do.
My clothes were fitting me a little looser recently. It was almost unbelieveable. With getting back into the teaching groove, still transporting our kids around daily and other things, I hadn't truly noticed how much weight I'd lost and how quickly. But with all the chaos of life it hit me- like a big truck of chocolate and potato chips. I had to talk to somebody fast!
As I stood on the scale, I talked to a close friend on the phone.
"I told you I'm stressed out or something," I whispered as I closed the bathroom door.
"How much weight have you lost?" she asked.
I began to weep. I smothered my cries so my husband and kids couldn't hear me.
"How much weight? It's okay. You will be okay girl," she tried to convince me.
I was almost inaudible. "Thirty pounds," I managed to say.
"Woah," she whispered. Not sure why she was whisperingt.
"And no one noticed that you've lost that much in just almost a month?" she questioned.
I slowly slid down the wall and sat on the cold floor. "Nooooooo. And that's the sad part. My husband. My kids- none of them have noticed."
I couldn't take it. She tried to calm me. After we hung up, I just stayed there, on the floor, sobbing.
Knew I need to get a grip but geez- I was down to what I weighed before having my son!!! H'e's 13 now.
After a few minutes I wiped my face and went to bed. I was thinking I would need to possibly talk to a counselor or someone the next day. Losing this amount of weight in a short time- meant stress city and instability.
The next morning, I woke to the sounds of my husband yelling in the bathroom.
"Myles! Maurissa! Which one of ya'll been messing with this scale again?"
I sat up.
